I haven’t written anything substantive over the last quarter and I apologise for that. A friend introduced me to a guy, there was chemistry and laughter and for a window in time, I was happy to just enjoy a presence without though for the future. Notorious for my well ordered interactions with others, I let go of the reins and indulged in the moment. There were long text messages, pictures, dinner and hilarity. Surmise to say, I was happier with a guy than I had been over the past 2-3 years.
It didn’t last, of course. Despite not planning a future with the dude, I still needed some measure of reciprocity. The dalliance ended the same way it began, quietly and over text messaging. What is it with guys and text message endings? while other dalliances fall apart due to inadequate time and communication, we fell out because we were both on vacation. I needed my text messages answered daily as per custom and he needed a weeklong break. I had no idea and in the spirit of improving communication, I asked if I was bothering him. He replied in the negative and then sent a prose about feeling conflicted.
I am way too tired for conflicted dealings with men, especially those who are supposed to know better. What’s the point of Netflix, a comfy bed and good friends to spend valuable energy on those who don’t want you? I guess, this is to say, I am done. Tired.
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